to love and to be loved back, that doesn't really matter.

hari ini gue menyadari dan benar - benar merasakan
bahwa ternyata yang paling membahagiakan bagi gue bukan disayangi balik atau diperhatikan orang - orang yang gue sayangi.
tapi yang paling membahagiakan adalah bisa punya arti dan bisa berbuat untuk orang - orang yang sangat gue sayangi.
ga peduli mereka minta atau nggak. semua orang butuh teman.
dan gue bahagia menjadi seorang teman, yang bagi - bagi rasa sayang gratis.
mencintai, dan mereka yang gue cintai merasakannya. itu cukup merasa gue dicintai.
terimakasih Ya Allah :)

Can't Help Falling in Love

Shall i stay..would it be a sin?
If i can't help falling in love with you.
Just like river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes, something are meant to be...
So won't you please..take my hand?

things about you. (i just write this..with random feelings)

I wish i am a free bird.
But i never were. And i will never be.
Everything that i need to lift me to the sky
Reminds me of something i cannot leave.
When every leaves fall and touch my hair
When every wind blows whispering your name.
Why do i have to fall when there's no way up?
Why do i have to love when there's no way to get me to you?
I have been walking on my feet since the dawn breaks.
Then why bother looking for someone to get myself run?
I have to get up, i have to escape the maze.
Either to get to you
or get lost into neverwhere
I wish i am a free bird.
But i never were. And i will never be.
Anything that flows with the river stream
Brings back things about you
When nothing can wait forever
Will you unlock the only door to escape?
Tell me when your evening will come
Then i'll be no longer the silhouette of yours.

Thanks :') for every happiness and tears that maybe never be mine. Take care of yourself and make a decision :)

this song is sad..but it's so true :')

"I Can't Make You Love Me"
(originally by Bonnie Raitt)

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices
Inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me closely
Don't patronize
Don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
Somethin' that it won’t
And here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I will feel the power but you won't
No you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me
When you don't
When you don't

I'll close my eyes
'Cause then I won't see
The love you don't feel
When you're home with me
Morning will come
And I’ll do what's right
Just give me till then
To give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel
Somethin' that it won’t
And here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
I will feel the power but you won't
No you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me
When you don't
When you don't

netral.

kau dikejar bayangan kebenaran
ketika semua penolakan datang
dari dalam diri , dari dalam pikiran.
apa salah ketika otak bekerja cepat,
tapi hati tak pernah rela untuk percaya.
lelah untuk menunggu ketenangan
lelah mencari udara di ruang hampa
bahkan lelah untuk mengarang cerita
kau lupa rasanya bermimpi untuk berharap
sedetik setelah kau sadari
kebenaran yang kautunggu hanya ilusi
ketika asam terlalu pedih dan basa terlalu pahit,
netral lah.
berjalan diatas tawarnya genangan air hujan
tidak akan sanggup melukai mimpimu

the song that had ever been deleted from my phone because it's..too sad.

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart

But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around?

I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved

I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go...

I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth

And I've never opened up

I've never truly loved 'til you put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home.