I have to do what i never wanted to do.

Halo, ini curhatan bukan bermain metafora.

Leave.
I have problems with making friends with many awesome ppl and can never leave.
Being left behind hurts me so deep
while leaving others because i have to is wrecking my ship even deeper.
My friends once said to me
How their days going without me
I felt so much appreciated. Really.
How i tell jokes around and laugh with them at college.
How i being strict at them when they don't struggling for their life.
How i listen to them when they tell me their problems that they never let others to.
How all of us sing in the hallways or elevator and never care about how others thinking what we are doing.
How we just sit there and share love in silence.
I know i'll soon be graduated.
Means, things will never be the same.
Would they still wishing to meet me everyday?
Would they still hold me when i'm drown?
Would they miss me?
Would they let me to help them everytime they're in need?
Because i do.